Girl Child Africa.

I want you to do something for me. Something  I have heard lot over the years and it just made me cringe , because I was to once mother of a daughter.   And could not imagine this happening to my babies.  I want you to trust me on this, and please don't run away the moment you hear word Nigeria. Not everybody is thieves, not everybody is out there to get your  ass... Not everybody is killer , or hater.   Think about your country, and how foundations work there.  Think about how much money goes to pockets of finding fathers there...  So  trust me when I tell you, money you are about to donate will change the lives of many girls in Nigeria and maybe in Africa in general.  Think about better life quality, think about how well your kids are doing in school, think about how child  molesters  can be tracked, so our kids are safe.    Just think about for a moment if you did not have it .    How would you protect your  daughters/sons ?  There is time for change in this fucked up world.   It might not happen today, but  one step at a time. So just be open minded, and compassionate.

Please  look at these links I am posting now, and share them with everybody. Look at videos, do some research.    Lets help them all together.

https://fundanything.com/en/campaigns/girl-child-africa

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T6tjdHk4crI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIhDO58JcQw



I really would not share this with you all if I did not believe help is needed.   Think about it this way...  one bottle of good wine costs 20 to whatever amount of dollars...  Skip one bottle tonight or tomorrow...  and  give that amount to this campaign.   You have no idea how much that would help.   You are going to make a change in someones life.  :)    Spread love, care, be compassionate.  If you have any questions please message me or comment this blog...

BUT please do me one huge favor. If you can't help, share this post with anybody you can.

Lets give these girls Their VOICE....


I love you guys....
PS.. Im heading to Nigeria/Naija soon...    You will get updates one day from the source.....

I am happy.

This blog, is really all about my feelings and thoughts and things I believe in. SO one day I might be little pissed, but the next day totally normal.  It is all part of figuring things out .   Past few days I got couple of emails from people telling me, that they are happy to see me back and blogging.  I had no idea people missed my  stories.  BUT, HEY YOU... I AM BACK FOR REAL.. Be ready for  some sad, happy, fun stories, and please contact me personally, if you have questions. Don't go behind my back spreading rumors that carry no weight. Ask before.

But anyway. I am Happiest I have been for years.  I am in love and I  Love same time. I am at peace and I am content.  I am in a relationship so strong, that it had me question every other relationship I have ever had before.  This relationship that started out with situationship, but turned into this amazing worldwide  Relationship. From usa to china, from china to USA, and soon from china to Nigeria. Love found me again.  I was not ready, I did not look for it, but I had put it out to Universe, that I need someone amazing, someone who mirrors  me, someone who likes same things as me and someone who sees me.  My life is wahala free and I am so so so happy, that he took a chance on Us.

 Lot of you have been concerned about my well being.  Well, please don't be.   When I first started telling people couple of years ago that I AM GOING TO NIGERIA ONE WAY OR ANOTHER, I was  laughed at. I was told I will be raped, and  pimped out, and  most likely will disappear without a trace. And I was like. Oh bitches please. You don't know what you are saying. Do your research. You can  loose your kidneys here in China as well, You can get shot in usa , so. PLEASE,  don't feed me this shit. There is  terror everywhere in this world. You are not safe anywhere.  SO drop it..

But they did not. I kept hearing more and more how stupid I am to believe I will survive there( i don't know if I will, and its ok), but one thing I know. I am supposed to go there.  You know that feeling that you have in you...  That it will happen, you don't know how, but IT WILL... and then it happens...  and you don't know how you made it happen. It is amazing.

If I had not met Kory, i'd go there through other channels. I wanted to go and volunteer there. But he came along, and everything changed. Everything fell into place.   I told him couple of times that he Saved me. I really feel like it.  I am not easy to tame, and he managed it somehow.    Unbelievable  how one person can make you feel.   He is really the most amazing person in my life ( my son also, but it is all different)














His hand is mine to hold rest of my life...


Later today I will write another topic close to my heart, and please  don't turn away .. Read it, look at trailers, and SHARE .. PLEASE share that story...     Read it with open mind, and send that link to all your friends. I would not do it, if I did not trust the source.   That story will change your life.  And open up your minds even more....

Wize wordz

Dont settle for less....

What i mean is.... Every day we get hit by tons of meaningless words... And it is our job to make sense of them.  Every time In my life i have dated someone- I have heard from them _ I LOVE YOU words...  I have responded to there words only about 2-4 times.. and really meaning them... why I say  2-4 is because ... I was not sure  i felt what I said.... But since i was 16 years old I have heard I LOVE you more than 20 times...   COuld be even more than 30.. I don't know...    Words mean nothing to me.. actions do.. and if I love I LOVE HARD... I fall hard and recovery will be hard also... BUT I D O   NOT  use words to lead in a wrong way...  

All I know is.. I have loved, and I have lived ... and I have settled.. ANd Iam so ready to settle again with somone .. SOmone who will compliment my life... somone who will be my bestie for rest of my life.....  I have and idea who.. and i hope its him..But I am trusting timing . If it happens it  happens... If not.   it was not meant to be...

There  are no losses or wins in this adventure.. All we have is this MOMENT.... I don't know what will happen in 5 minutes...    Enjoy the moment ... Enjoy your journey.   just live just breathe  just BE....


I know now -- I LOVE someone... And i hope i will not be disappointed by his actions....

WOW

Here I am again. I haven't blogged for a while... I can't access couple of my blogs in some weird reasons.. SO, Im going to use this one to update what the fuck is happening in my life.

long story short... I'm super fat, fattest I have been for years. I'm about 82 kilos...  Last year on my Birthday I broke  couple of bones around my tailbone... Refused surgery...  Could not work out for months...  Then I just got comfortable..   And decided, I don't give a fuck about this worlds fuckery.... Just do my thing... Then --- I kind of injured my ankle, then got shingles,  and after that.... I met love of my life...  Weird how things work...

 Last time I was in love it ended bad.. And I told to myself- I will never fall in love again.. .But... He came- and changed my life for better.I don't know if it will last for  rest of my life, but for now-- He is all  I want....

I met him when I was not looking  at all.   He is exactly what I have been looking for.   Everything to the point...   lets say 98% of what I have been  waiting for...

But to be honest.. It has been hell of a few years...  I'm finally calm, quiet, and centered. It took a while for me to get here. Tons of soul searching, tons of tears, tons of upset moments and tons of  eyeballs...

But I'm still here standing...

My life is not easy. People think it is. Most of them see me as  Kept Woman...  Good for them...   Think what you want...  I don't own anybody any explanations.  All I know is... Life is great. And   if you loose yourself in this brutal game.. Get your mind on it, and work your ass out of the mess you created to yourself....  

been there , done that.. Never again....

...

so yeah.. I met him when I was not looking. I was already 78 kilos, not looking, not wanting to fall in love. But the moment I saw him-- I knew  He is it for now... Now could be forever, but I don't know, so I keep my mind open ...

..
Everybody tells me to be careful...  Pretty much 99% of people I know.. And I'm like.. I was careful all my life.. I am done being careful.. I take my chances...  Because, if Donald becomes president, we all will be fucked anyways...  SO.. I am taking my chances..  He could be married somewhere.. I don't know.  As long as I don't know ... I am fine...  But till then, I enjoy this ride with Him.  He makes me smile, and laugh and dream big.  So.. this is good for something..

 So far everything in my life has been Great for something...  And I leave it with that....  So much to tell.. But it is all about timing ..  when Time is right.. I will tell...

#love #ankuri#dreams