Yaiks.... SUre... why not...

This is my latest motto... WHY NOT? WHY not jump head first into unknown again, I have done it all my life.  And as much as most of you would love to scold me for my decisions... SEE where it all has taken me...  I  had pretty damn amazing adventures in my  short life.  My closest friends know all my heartbreaks, and struggles, but they also have to see, the stories I have made for my tree of life.... Stories I would not have been able to make, if I did not take stupid  learning experiences....


 ANd I am craving more.  I hate to admit it, but I realized I am adrenaline junky. NOT doing roller coaster rides, or sky diving, but   chasing the high or unknown.... while, keeping my 2 feet on this ground...  Yes, it does sound naive, but it works for me.

WHile I am writing, I am still staring at my ceiling of row of 3 lights that are not aligned right... ANd I am fucking paying almost 3000 dollars for this apt... THese lights are driving me insane... Just like  I drive myself insane, when there is something out of order in my life...  Internally....  Right now I am fine.. more than fine....

B U T...

SO many people have told me, " Well, you have to know yourself by now?"  You should be remarried  and living the life .. blah blah blah... It is all bullshit....

And I am like.. SURE.. .I do know who I AM...  I am PERSON...  I am MEEE...  ANd
same time, I never want to limit myself to be that ONE ME.. There are so many amazing sides to me, and they are all good sides..  And one day...  When I ace what I was meant to do, ( besides being awesome ),   The ONE will find  me ..  And the life we will make will be extraordinary.....

Ordinary is not a word  in my vocabulary...


Hi, My name is Extraordinary Hot mess. What is your name again?