In my life I have been happy, angry, desperate, angry once more, frustrated, more angry... Till I realized I have to break that cycle. Once in a while frustrations kick in, anger resurfaces, and I ask myself question WHY DID I allow myself to stoop to that level again. I am better than that... I'm smarter that, I am stonger than that... But once in a while, life tests you, and puts you in the same room with people to test your maturity... I am pretty impressed now, that I am actually just walking away from all Bs that has nothing to do with me, or if someone wants to pull me into theirs BS.... Feels damn good...
So now... I have been fucking sick past 2 weeks... And I realized -- I got my duck in one row finally... Beside stable job duck... That Duck is still ducking around.. But its ok... Babysitting is not the worst job ever, and I love kids, so job here and there is great :D
My ducks are in one straight row. I know what I want, I know how to get it, and I know it will take time... I am Madam know it all. There you go. I KNOW... But knowing is not nuff.. Steps need to be taken again, and I don't want to waste anymore time . Times and times again I spend time banging my head on wall... ( I swear every room in my apt has my forehead print somewhere).... because I know how to get shit done... I'm just scared to end up disappointed at myself... But now I a getting to that point ... I don't even care... Let's get this ''du09u3409ut03ty0oidhkhj; done...
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