Friday, December 16, 2016
HOLIDAYS
HOLIDAYS ARE ROUGH...ROUGH TO MY CORE... Rough to the point - I can not breathe. Rough- till I can't see straight. Rough from tip of my head to my toes... This is all rough..
But it is not what I am concentrating on. We all are born to deal with difficulties in life. We all are given different paths. And we all think our paths are rough... So, I am empathetic to all of my friends journeys in life.... But my story is not about my friends , it is about me.
And now, I am bleeding inside out. I WeChat'ed my son G. today. From the first moment I heard his voice, I knew he has changed.. He hates talking on phone, so I never call him. But Last night I had dream about him, and I had to call him. And he answered. :) And when I heard his voice I realized, he is not a boy anymore. The way he spoke to me, the way his voice sounded.. And everything else.. 4 months ago he was different person that he is now.... And I am so happy , that he is growing up. He has no fucking idea what is waiting for him in few years, but he will figure it out soon...
I am sure, If I was still in china, I would not see these changes as drastic as they seem because I was in his life, day in and say out, but being away, but still active, it is different...
It is not easy.. But I am actively dealing with it.. I am just happy he is amazing human being at this point.... :)
xoxoxo
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