( This post is just weird ... ever for me ;))
I don't remember...
I can't point a finger on what made me ME....
But I remember the day I accepted my faith in November TWO THOUSAND AND SEVEN.... Maybe that was it?
I don't know?
I was fresh out of "country side"... Met someone fresh out of divorce,/ Ph.d degree and "shit"...
19 year old me ..... of course it was exciting...But I had no idea , this is the life I would one day love to live... ....
fast forward to now...
I Remember every moment from 09/20/2009... till now... ANd before that... lets rewind it all to till 1997... Yes.... it has been my life and my memories.. and flash backs... .
How could I forget...
I had 2 amazing kids, had interesting marriage for about 14 years, . .. And to this date I have been a mom for 18 years...
It has not been an easy ride... There are days, I wish I was not me..
There r days, I wish I did not exist.. There r days I wish I could ... . ... ....
There are days I wish I could show my emotions as raw as they are in me, and everyone would understand...
There are days people would not tell me they get it... ( because they don't)
There are days I wish people just leave me alone..
There are days people did not expect anything from me...
And with that all said... I wish my Friends would not turn away from me when I do not return their messages for days...
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