Thoughts from today...

....  Ask before you assume… ASK before you belittle someone you met briefly. ASK before you jump into conclusions… ASK BEFORE  YOU MADE UP LITTLE STORIES IN YOUR MIND THAT FIT YOUR REALITY….  Be curious. And be accepting and open to receive an answer, that is different from your perception…   And seriously,  be ready to receive no answer at all… 

If you do not want to ask… Stay humble…. 

STAY OPEN… "

Diana...

September.

Today , for a hot second, one of my favorite Instagram pastors posted something, that made me boiling mad.... It was not directed towards me, but I felt personally attacked.  And I still do.

What she said is.. " Look at you! living just fine without the person you thought you needed!. "

I know it was not directed towards me--- ME - MOM , who lost  my firstborn  Child  to cancer 9 years ago- Had divorce almost right after that, and then decided to leave my son  with my ex husband who is now married to mistress he known since 2003?   And I was married to him  since 1998-2015 ( WTF)  And they Since 2015 have had 3 more kids...........  AND YES---  it  all hit a nerve in me.

NOT the part of  me living just fine with the ASSHOLE I thought I needed,

 But me Living without the most amazing Girl who had so much to teach to the world....   I Miss My Girl Regina every day.  EVERY day I find reasons for me to live and carry on.. EVERY day in my life I push myself harder to  get that goal I have in my mind, and every day i Live , I move further away from the  pain I introduced and invited to my life ....   I am Healing...



 And it feels good..... Miss my Guardian angel..... ... Forever in my heart....Forever 10....

Terviseks.

When Was the last time you did something major for yourself? What was it? How did it make you feel?

If you can answer all of these questions with positive outlook... CONGRATS.. You are an happy person....

BUT if you answered last question with an answer--GUILTY--  We have to work on this... We have to work on Y O U!!!

YOU SHOULD NOT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT WORKING ON YOURSELF...


I know all about it... I was was people pleaser  for years and years and years... And I did everything for others.. AND there was  absolutely nothing wrong with that..  At least that is what I thought at that very given moment.....But I forgot to be selfish. And it is a MUST in every persons life... YOu have to be selfish for your own good.  You have to be selfish to  survive and help others..

How many of you been inside of an aircraft. Sat down... Heard or read  emergency manual.... What does it say about oxygen masks?   YOU HAVE TO fucking take that mask and push it over your mouth and nose first...  AND THEN HELP OTHERS...


Same principles apply to your life... Help yourself first ...  Give yourself love first. Turn that negative thought into positive... Instead of thinking I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO DO THIS, think along the lines... I know someone who has done this... Let me contact her...   Or..  I hate dieting,

AND WITH THAT .. Everything changes... but first. You must accept the fact that you are amazing and deserve the fuck out of this world!!. GO and GET IT!!!! If you read this now, know this... YOu are luckier than most people , you are amazing, you  can accomplish anything you want and YOU ARE FINE!!!!. 

What is your  overall mission statement?!
What are some of your Personal, physical, social, family, career, financial  , educational goals?
Think about them... Write them down... Print it out, or write it out, and use this statement for an about a week... ANd if it feels wrong, change it around till it sticks!!!

Mine overall mission statement is..
My mission is to take action on those areas in my life , I only dared to dream about. I am a woman of many talents , and I am ready to share them with the world.  I will no longer fear rejection and will take all steps/ risks needed to live/ have successful life mentally, spiritually financially.  I am worthy the best of everything..... My journey my rules...